getting the idea and not liking it
read the "stickies" when i first signed up.
still felt vague.
took an "am i an alcoholic?" quiz before that.
didn't like the answers.
i think it's pretty clear now that i'm looking for someone or something to tell me it's ok to get drunk on friday and saturday night. that as long as i can control the desire to drink every night, then i'm not an alcoholic.
my friends are social drinkers. i mean when we go on motorcycle weekends, they get drunk on beer in the evening. No one drives drunk. no one would respect a motorcyclist who did. i enjoy getting drunk with them . . . or i enjoy getting drunk. i can do that with or without my friends.
never drink again? not interested.
can i keep my drinking to weekends only? not according to what happened the past few months.
am i an alcoholic? if it means NEVER drinking again . . . i'm not ready to say "yes."
sitting back and listening to what you have to say. . . counseling appt on Friday next week. . . .
day 5 without drinking . . . i want one.