Welcome, I'm 13 days having spent years and years trying to control theamount of wine I'd drink each day...every day. All the games thinking I'm not an alcoholic or an addict & that its just a bad habit. I realized that I was drinking more, and when I tried not to buy wine or have a beer instead, it never worked out. I'd be ok for a day or two at most, but then I'd go back to buying wine and drinking a lot of it. It has control over me. I couldn't picture (and still can't) going without it in life. Its the same dependence I had years ago with cigarettes. I'm trying now to stop lying to myself and realize that I'm pretty powerless against the stuff if its near me. If it were in the house now, there's *no* way I wouldn't have opened the bottle. If you can't stop and be comfortable and stay stopped for a decent spell, then I think you have to reconsider the "bad habit" idea. If you stick around w/this site there's so much help and support.
Best to you . . .