Hi dojoro,
I read your original post and saw a lot of myself in you. It's 5:35 here in TX and I too drank my wine as I was cooking dinner, then with dinner and then after the kids went to bed. I was craving just a little while ago but it has passed for now. This is not my first attempt at trying not to drink but I'm hoping this time is my last. I played some of the mind games that you too are playing. I thought "I really don't drink THAT much", maybe I'll just try to drink on the weekends. So I'd buy a bottle on Friday that would normally last until Sunday. But then Monday came and I ended up having to go get more. And on and on. The "weekends only" drinking didn't work, the "buying only a litte at a time" didn't work and all of the other approaches I tried to use for moderation did not work. What I realized was that I could not moderate and I could not control it. And so here I am again. Maybe you can moderate it but maybe it's the alcohol talking. Hang in there!
txsar