How are you doing today, Jason? (I just got back from going to coffee after my morning AA meeting.)
We have a new guy at the meeting (the past couple of weeks). He shared today (we share "round robin." Of course, people are free to pass, which many newcomers choose to do for the first few meetings. But, they usually choose to share after the first week or so because, by that time, they've heard "their story" enough times that they feel right at home). Sitting across from him, I was able to see the pain on his face as he spoke. He wasn't sharing anything particularly personal or tragic. He was just speaking honestly. I immediately identified with what I saw.
It can be so hard to have this disease, Jason. Thank God we don't have to do it alone. I hope that you have found a meeting.