Yea I get that.... My wife and I are very well known in our small town, where we have lived for nearly 25 years... We can't go ANYWHERE without someone we know around. I see them at meetings too, they are there for the same reason I am and usually I have a very pleasant conversation with them.
Hmmm. But you aren't an alcoholic.
Well, perhaps consider the possibility. If you won't go to a meeting, get to a book store. I recommend you get the "big book". It's title is simply "Alcoholics Anonymous". If you know the checkout person, It can be for your father, mother, sister, friend, whatever.... There are some other good books, hopefully Carol or someone will be along with the titles...
Keep posting.... Anything to get through this difficult time... SR is always open!!
Mark