No of course you didn't! But, you are codie by this time. Visit the friends and family forum. Your post was long and detailed and there were lots of red flags in it: essentially you are doing things you didn't want to do and crossing the boundaries and breaking rules you made.
Lots of us alcoholics (and drug users) are also co-dependent.
It's really hard to set those boundaries and stick to our guns.
Welcome to SR by the way and you will find a huge amount of help here. Yes, you might want to post in Friends and Family forum.