Unfortunately, we all have this belief that other parents are doing it so much better than we are. We feel that we need to be super-parents -- to do it all - to give our kids everything (often things that we didn't have).
The reality is that parenting is hard and sometimes it really sucks. There are days when I just don't like my kids - but that is part of learning how to be a parent.
My heavy drinking started when my first kids were born and continued until they were 7. (I have three kids).
Now sober, I find them much more enjoyable and my patience is so much better.
So, we all used to think that drinking helped us relax to be better parents -- when I am now finding true peace with my parenting role without alcohol.
And yes, it does get better until they become pre-teens, I am told.