hello and welcome to sr.thank goodness you have made the descision to turn your life around.it is so worth it.my previous life is just that now,alcohol holds no attraction at all for me anymore.sr has been a fabulous tool in my recovery.lots of wise and understanding words here.i couldnt stop and stay stopped on my own so i went to AA and got on the 12 steps pretty quick.my life has changed beyond recognition! have you considered a recovery plan?