Originally Posted by
Asta1 
I am on day 10. ... A lot of the 12 steps have real value but the higher power thing was just too much for me. I haven't attended AA since.
There may be a relationship between not being able to maintain sobriety and your opinions.
My first act in recovery was surrender. I gave up thinking that my opinions mattered when it came to getting sober. All of the evidence pointed to the simple fact that I had no idea how to stay sober. It didn't matter what I wanted to believe or what I thought should be right. It simple wasn't working. I had to turn to those who had been successful with sobriety.
For me, it was a choice. Hold on to my opinions and keep drinking, with a few weeks or months between drinks, or become open to new ideas, even if they were distasteful to me at the time.