malcolms ... I can say that I really do understand where you are at. I am on day 2... and perhaps the 900th attempt at being sober. I understand that fact that there is really nothing "wrong" with your life. There is nothing wrong with mine either... that is if you don't count the fact that about once every three months I will blackout from drinking to much (blackout only if I am lucky...)... If I am unlucky things turn really bad.
But, on the outside I really do have it all together... I have a great job, good friends, a wonderful husband, a house that most would kill for. But, the Sunday... was that once every three months... and I refuse to allow that to be what my life is. I deserve better... .and getting sober for me... is totally a selfish act. It is hard because I want to say "I am worth this...".... and I have done that so very little in life...
So, I am on day two... and hopefully will make it to day three.
Saliena