Hi Anon
I was in much the same position as you once - it is terrifying...but I never did anything about it...things got worse over the years and I nearly did , literally, die...
You've made a great step forward in coming here. SR is great. I know you'll find a lot of support, help and guidance here.
A lot of people here swear by face to face support too.
Here's some links to some of the major recovery programmes - I urge you to check them out...see which ones appeal.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...resources.html
Welcome to SR!
D