Hi Tanya, welcome to SR
You're in the right place, and I think you introduced yourself just fine.
Personally, I don't care about labels, so call yourself what you want to. "Tanya" works, really. Or "Firemama." Nobody said you have be called "alcoholic."
You want to get help... but what exactly can we help you with? (I just wasn't clear, I'm sorry.) We're very helpful around here... or try to be at least.
Read & post... there are others here going through what you are going through, and a lot of it resonates with what I went through. Stay around some & I hope you get out of it what you need....
Take care,
-TB