Hey pboy,
I used to get drunk and sleep in any car that just looked like mine, until I had no car anymore. I have no idea how I never got arrested for it. Dee's right - the madness will only continue and probably get worse. Try stopping for a few nights - go to a movie, bowling, take in a ballgame, or try an AA meeting.
It's a big world out there. Our addictions only make it seem small.
Best wishes.
Mike