Drunk newbie....
I'm what would be considered a HFA...
I have been a pretty steady drinker since highschool, pretty heavy the last 10 years.
I have never had any major setback that awakened anyone to my problem.
I'm 37, I have a high paying job with only 4 sick days in 8 years, I have 2 small children that know I love them dearly and love me back unconditionally, a beautiful wife that also knows I adore her and doesn't judge me , no legal matters afected by drinking and no apparent health problems...
I'm sick, I cannot remember the last time I did not consume at minimum of a fifth of vodka a day, very often more... it has become routine.
I took my son to recycle the household goods tonight(drunk..shame) and realized the bulk of it was my empty vodka bottles(not even including what I hide), He commented about daddy's "stupid juice"...I felt disgusted.
My father is a recovered alcoholic who has acknowledged my drinking problem by saying "I'm here when your ready"
I'm ready.
I'm embarrased that this has taken over me.
I'm terrified of life without the comfort of this false security.
I'm sick of the nausea and mid day-shakes.
I'm sick of the secret I hide from the ones I love.
I will be opening my wife's eyes to the problem tonight, she has no idea how bad my little problem has grown.
I'm ready today.