Hi Ash...I am new to the site, and you are actually my first post, so I have nothing really to offer, except that I understand what you are saying. I have been irritated about my lack of "epiphany" for many many years. That earth moving moment when I KNOW for sure who God is, and feel comforted and held by Him.
I pick up the Bible, and am immediately confused and have no idea what I am reading. It's like another language.
I pray and feel nothing.
I listen and hear nothing.
What the heck is a "personal relationship" anyway? I barely have good ones with people I can see.
Anyway, just letting you know you are not alone in this struggle. I feel ya.
Liz