Hey Dallas
Yep, you are the 'was me' down to a tee.
If I wanted to forget people like you I wouldn't be here
I know how you feel...but I also know it doesn't have to be like this, as impossible as that seems...
My best advice to you is to dump whats left, go to bed, sleep it off, and start again.
Where you are now is no place to live.
You deserve more, and I hope you find it.
You're not alone
D