Am booze run... Ben there done that. Pick up the phone instead, log in here, meditate, log into smart recovery and do a work sheet.... Anything else other than the run. I would tell myself just one Steele reserve. Not enough; back in the car to go get another, at a different store of course. Repeat previous sentence a couple of times an you have the epitome of the "obesession" of the mind axiom. Finally on day 85 and life is getting better. Watching my girlfriends drinking patterns while I'm sober has been very educational for me. Best of luck with your journey, you have friends here and elsewhere and other resources that can really help. Use us; we want you to.