I am just like you are when I go to stop drinking. Last night I really wanted to make day1 happen, but by 1000pm, I slipped and screwed that all up. Woke up at 11am not feeling great, and tired. Was mad at myself. I'm going to give it a go again tonight, and see how it goes. Congrats on making 42 days! That's a real accomplishment. The most I made was 19 about a year or so ago, so, good for you! I'll be around later if you're around. Good luck!