lovinmenow have you thought that possibly being forced to not drink by taking antabuse is not recovery but forced sobriety?
Have you considered working a program of recovery?
Look deep inside of your self and ask your self "Did I quit taking the antabuse out of laziness or because I wanted to drink?"
Have you changed one thing about you?
I know the old me was a drunk!!!!
I had to change the old me, it took a lot of work on my part, I changed and continue to work on changing, I am no longer the self centered, egotist drunk with an inferiority complex I was when I drank, I am a different man today, today I am a recovering alcoholic who has found a solution for life that works for me that in no way involves alcohol or a drug as an answer for ANYTHING.
I spent many years trying to stop drinking by simply doing nothing but not drinking. I was a drunk, I did not change, drunks drink and because I had changed nothing about me I went to the only thing I knew how to do time and time again, I always wound up drinking again fullfilling my destiny as a drunk.