Oh man, am I ever excited for you, Fenster. If you take the challenge and start looking around and within (the BB sends us directly to ourselves to find higher power), you are about to blast into dimensions you may never have expected - but probably always have suspected.
There is such a wealth of possibility - once you decide what feels most interesting and comfortable for you, you can find mind-blowing authors, poets, musicians, and just regular people whose own intelligence reminds you of what is closest to your heart - and go from there. (see Kabir, below). Good luck and
"Don't give up. Never, never, never give up." -- Winston Churchill, alcoholic and depressive who, in the meantime, saved the free world! "Wherever you are is the entry point." --Kabir