Originally Posted by
xenodamus 
I've let my boss down. I've let my wife down. I've let myself down. I do this over and over and ask myself the same questions every time.
That was me, feeling worthless and sub-human. Like I shouldn't even have the right to go on living. Except I didn't take any breaks in between binges. Every day waking up and feeling like that, calling in and lying to my work, or faking my way through it.
That was me the day I called a guy in AA who offered me a spiritual solution to my problem. He took me through the 12 Steps and I recovered. I haven't felt like you describe since that day.