"I can't wait to put this life behind me." How I wish I'd said those words to myself decades ago, Weston - but no, I had to keep "testing" myself over & over, until the final test almost did me in. It has been many years since drinking was a fun thing for me. I don't know why it took so long to admit it, and to see if I could be happier without it (ya think?). I stubbornly held on to the memory of the few times I enjoyed it and wasn't out of control. I never recreated those times, not once.
We're glad you're here with us, and wish you many happy, healthy years without the poison to bring you down. You don't need it.