im glad you are going to keep going nothing,in the end i was willing to believe in little green men from mars to get sober,in other words i was willing to go to any lengths.it took me 7 months to find out which groups i wanted to attend regularly.now im in a group that has a real strong recovery message.its great.pm me any time you like,im still fairly new,i only got sober just under 9 months ago,but,i got straight to work with a great sponsor that gave me directions straight out of the big book.i am comfortable now with my conception of God.but i had to do the steps to get there.