Good to see you FR
Keeping on trying is a big part of success
The only way I got through my sick alcoholic thinking was to not feed it.
Once we take that first drink...it doesn't matter whether it's a half bottle or half a case...we've fed the beast and we keep ourselves the same rut, the same circuit - going round and round.....
The thing with most of us is we never cease hoping that we might wake up one day and be 'normal'. That never happens.
We have to change, and we have to work - we have to stop having that dialogue with alcohol and alcoholic thinking...and the only way to do that, in my experience, is to cut booze out of our lives entirely.
We're always here to help you get through the tough times
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