Hi Robbie
Welcome. You find a lot of support here - and some good advice as you've seen.
I know what you mean about the fear of change - that fear kept me in alcoholism for years, it kept me in hell, it took me right to the wall, and it very nearly killed me.
Think about where you are and where you want to be.
There is a great life on the other side of that fear, if you want it.
SR helped me to get through that fear - maybe we can help you too
I hope to see you around some more
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