Ashlee,
I find some solace in thinking about "god" simply as the electricity that runs through all of us. We really do have an electrical charge in our bodies, and for me, connecting with "god" means plugging in with other people. When people say they "turn x over to god," for me, that means letting go of the illusion that I can control something, and trusting that talking to other people who have been through similar experiences can help me get through this, too.
That's it. The image I have of god in my head is really just a bunch of blue lights. I don't know why blue.
Good luck. I have been turning away from AA lately because of the whole religion aspect, but I do believe there is strength in numbers.
PL