TB- I wish I had some words of wisdom for you. It seems like you have fought your way through life already. Don't let alcohol stop you from reaching your full potential. You sound like you have a good head on your shoulders. I saw everything too. I have children that are probably older than you and I didn't become an alcoholic until I started drinking in my 40's. But it got me anyway. I have a husband who thinks AA is a cult but I would like to join just for the friends. I think if you attend meetings it can only help you and believe a young person who truly does not want to drink needs AA for the friends alone. Good luck and keep posting. Most people your age who have a bad problem with alcohol are not looking for a solution so you are a step ahead already.