Hi Laura, Remember how good you feel now and how positive your future right now seems as your mind comprehends a future without the thing that has been holding it back and taking it back to square 1 time and time again ie- alcohol.
Total acceptance of being an alcoholic, and that it is the first drink that is the one that kills you, is a must to have any chance of remaining sober IMHO. By accepting this wholeheartably and accepting that drinking must never be an option for you means that you stand a fighting chance. Sounds like you have realised this too, which is great for your sobriety.
I wish you all the best in your 'journey'.
Peace and Love xxx