Hi wantto,
There's a lot of good advice here - I started to really recover when I realised I didn't have to give into the feelings of 'wanting' to do something...
Sobriety is always new and strange and sometimes uncomfortable - but active addiction is far worse - please remember that. Read some old posts here if you need to.
If you push through this, it gets easier next time, and the time after....
The thing is, as others have said...stopping drinking is rarely enough. White knuckling doesn't cut it for most of us.
I had to make a commitment that drinking was no longer a viable option - and stick to it.
I had to change my life and myself to do that. That's why many here choose a support programme of some kind.
Once we start moving from simple abstinence into recovery, the rewards really are well worth it.
And you're not alone - we're all here to support you.
Hang in there
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