Reread what Keith wrote, I could have wrote it myself.
Until I surrendered to the fact that I had absolutely no clue how to stay sober I kept getting drunk over and over and over again until I did not draw a sober breath for 5 years. I reached the point where some days no matter how much I drank I could not get drunk, and other days I was drunk on my butt after only 6-8.
When I became WILLING to do what ever it took to stay sober by following the suggestions of other recovered alcoholics who knew how to stay sober.... WE stayed sober together!