You've said a lot of things that I really understood, but man, that last post was me a 13 months ago... Forgetting to pay the bills, not making those tough phone calls, etc....
You know it's only in my head. I have to make a few calls this AM I'd rather not have to bother with, for a lot of reasons... I just got done with a couple... I woke up in the worst freaking mood this morning, and you know... the calls haven't been that hard and I am already feeling better.
Glad to hear the AA thing is working for you... good for you.... 44 days.
We are ALL worth it.
Mark