Hi jeff. Congratulations on your 43 days. I understand what you mean about thinking you'd feel happier. It was at that point that I'd end up drinking again. Don't be discouraged, be kind to yourself. It takes time to come back from all you've put yourself through. Learning to live as a sober person is something new to us & it's a process. I felt ok in the beginning, but so much better now. I'm glad I gave it time & didn't become impatient with myself.
You will make it, jeff - please keep posting and sharing your thoughts. It gets better, I promise.