So close...
Hi everyone. I'm having a really tough night. I haven't had a drink in 125 days for for some reason I'm feeling like today would be a good day to have some. I have tomorrow off so I could sleep as late as I needed to. I have no plans for tonight or tomorrow so there's no one who would notice if I was hungover or didn't show up somewhere at a certain time. I could easily drive 20 minutes across the state line and go to a liquor store without worrying about someone I know seeing me. Most of all, I'm bored and I want some entertainment! I'm a little nervous that maybe it hasn't been long enough since I stopped taking Antabuse. Almost 2 weeks but maybe not quite, I'm not 100% sure. This is crazy talk, right?!?! I don't think I'll do it but this makes me realize how vulnerable I am when I'm not taking the medicine. Hopefully this passes soon!!! Any words of advice for getting through a time like this?