Originally Posted by
keithj 
Sometimes, it takes a little failure for recovery.
Carrie -
I'd like to second what Keith and others have said.
When Thomas Edison was asked what it felt like to have failed so many times at creating the light bulb he said that "I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work."
So, you have just found something that doesn't work.
I have found that my
absolute worst cravings come at my sobriety birthdays. So, if you have noticed, I have been writing like crazy on SR for the past three days. Why? Because I just had my 9 month birthday on Sunday and I have learned that the only way that I stay sober is to get hyper-engaged in my recovery at these times. I do this by writing, reading posts (especially ones about ACOA), going to meetings, being a speaker at hospitals and institutions, talking with my sponsor, and hugging my kids.
I love recovery, but am just one drink away from being in your shoes.
So be happy. You have just determined another thing to check-off your list that doesn't work. And don't worry, it won't take you 9,999 more to find your solution ... there is a lot of wisdom in these posts.
You will find your path.