All I can do is keep trying
How crappy is it to come back here with 'my tail between my legs' so to speak and face everyone who was trying so hard to help me. So I blew it, I gave in even when I was given all the tools and advice I needed to get through it. I let myself down. I was so proud of my 30 days. All I can do is keep trying, and im back here to try again. I will need to make some changes and see what I can do differently now. Day 1.