Hevyn said what is in my heart. How do people here do that?!
My kids entire childhood was spent with a drunken mother. How very shameful. I have wallowed in that, but I've stopped. I've turned my life around. And...slowly, my relationship with them is changing. I think the biggest thing is trust. For them, it's hard to trust a drunk and have a productive life, I think.
We are all moving forward. They are learning through my mistakes. There is still major growth as a family...will be for years. The biggest thing...it takes TIME. It didn't get this way in a year, and it's going to take a hell of a lot more time to get it together. That's okay. I have the time, now.