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Old 10-11-2009, 04:49 AM
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I can really empathize with this thread & its helpful. I've been feeling better on day 3 & then drinking again to celebrate what i done & that i've proved that i can do it!
It all gets very wild after day 3, the feeling of normality, no drug of any kind in my body to make me feel normal & that actually feeling normal (drunk or high) has been my normality for years.
I guess its being so used to anesthetizing myself from life for so long.
Each Sunday i start my 3 or 4 days, i just want to know how, when i want to reward myself, when i feel good & clear, yet agitated & ratty & argumentative & a bit scared of being straight, & when i know that going to 5,6,7 days etc, do i say no to my reward that at day 3-4 i so crave!
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