Cait,
I'm so sorry that you are hurting.....
What do you want advise on?? If it's how to deal with the pain in living with an addict........... then you have a lot of work to do. THe pain and utter dissapointments will continue, because of his addiction, and you're inability to see that YOU can't HELP HIM/CHANGE HIM....
It's painful and sad sweetheart.
Keep posting /reading, we are all here to help.
Love
Cess