I so appreciate all the responses I have received. The answer on the anxiety has really helped me have hope that soon I will be my normal self. You all are due a blessing from God so that you can stay sober. When you are feeling sorry for yourself, think of all the good things you do have and cling desperately to those and dwell on them. They are gifts not to be squandered on the likes of the devils drugs. Then pull forward and enjoy the natural high of victory. Love ya all.