Wow - I'm sorry I caused such a stir with my own confusion. That was not my intention. I know everybody has different beliefs, different Gods, different ways and I would never take the liberty of critizising any of them. You all have given me different inside looks to what has worked for your sobriety and I have realised that part of my recovery is finding what works for me. I'd like to say trial and error, but I can't afford the error.