I am still sober, but it's starting to eat away at me. Last night I was thinking that I have to buy a lottery ticket and from out of nowhere I thought if I win my worries are over and I can have a drink. I mean I don't have to worry about losing my job then. How screwed up is that way of thinking? Obviously my ways of trying to stay sober aren't working, but I'm stuck of what to try. I don't even understand the difference between religious and spiritual, how can I even start to find a way that's right for me the 'don't want to/ do want to drink' alcoholic? One day I post I'm doing fine and messages supporting others and the very next I'm down and question sobriety. What's going on?
Thanks for listening.
