I seen this and I just want to say first I am an addict myself but also my mother turned to crack when I was 17 years old and she really done a number on me, put me through so much stuff that you could not believe. My father was absent from my life until I was 17 (my mother and him got back together) and the first time I met him he was drunk. I don't care how badly my mother hurt me and all the pain she put me through and what she has put me through recently I love her so much. I love her so much that I worry everyday that she will get back on drugs because once again she just recently got back (with what I like to call) my sperm doner. So I am scared to death she is going to relapse. But for now I need to worry about me. I just want to say, don't think your children don't love you. They might hate the things you have done but I would say talk openly about it. It does help both ends! They will always love you so don't ever think they don't.