Hi Mirage,
You're doing the right thing coming here and addressing this. I keep reading that drinking is isolating. I did the same. If I was with people, moderate. Did my real drinking alone in private. Very lonely experience.
It's natural to feel apprehensive about giving up something that you've come to depend on. What will you find in its place? And there is a grief process.
I hope you choose sobriety. Many of us here are finding it's a great thing.
Pulling for you!