You have written from the heart and I know where you are coming from. I'm new too but I keep logging in...I don't know why. Hope, I suppose. That this time I can make it different. There are just so many people here with kind words and words of guidance.
I've found it so encouraging to see all the various birthdays...from days to numbers of years. I hope I stick with it and I hope you do too
Best Wishes to you x