Hi allstar. To me it sounds like you have a problem. If you want expert advice, find a treatment center near you and have an evaluation done...they are usually free. It is my belief that if YOU think that YOU have a problem, then you'll be ready to accept help and not before that. It doesn't matter if it's thru inpatient, outpatient, or thru AA. You have to KNOW you have a problem before you can get better.
One thing I've heard many say, as a test for yourself, go into a bar, have just one drink and see if you can stop and walk out of there. I never tried this, but I've heard many people say that it was their wake up call. I hope you find your answers that you are looking for. I recommend doing lots and lots of reading here on SR and see if you can relate to people...it can be weird reading your life story that someone else has written.
Good luck! :ghug3