you should post this in the friends and family section honey. The people that hang out there are used to addicts and the wreckage they make of their partners.
Free yourself~
its seems hard at first but it is the most wonderful thing in the world. I have found that my codependent behaviors were having even more of a negative impact on my life than my drinking. When I decided to reclaim my life and take care of me, I found a path to the most amazing life.