I have to agree. If your so awful and such a POS and all that. Why does he keep getting back together with you?
Really the question is what the hell are you doing even going through that crap for?
I am sorry you have to deal with such a tool. But you are the only one who can stop the madness.
What you just told us right there is totally uncalled for and absolutely avoidable. If you want it to be.
No man is worth your sobriety or your self worth.
I cant tell you what to do. But I myself would have been long gone. If you keep letting that happen. It will keep happening. When you say enough is enough and show him its NOT ok to treat you like that. And show him you ARE better than that. It will stop. When you tell him to kick rocks.