Hello swampy, I noticed your '04 join date so you've been around recovery for awhile. Many people share here about their struggles, and many don't get it the first time, but there's strength in numbers so please continue sharing and looking for support here.
Long-term sobriety is possible, but yeah it's damn hard work. Does anything really worthwhile ever come easy? If I'd come this far and didn't have anything to show for it I'd be pretty upset, but nothing could be further from the truth. The rewards and gifts of recovery come slowly, but there is a payoff for our efforts. For me it's a life that's richer than anything I could've dreamed up. It takes daily work though, and a lifetime commitment to stay clean and sober.
I hope you'll put together a plan that works for you and stay focused on it. Get back to me after 5 years of sobriety and let me know how you're doing, k?
