Hi Morning Glory, I am back for a few moments. The more I think about all this, I start to wonder about being able to fix things. I'm not going to give up but, I keep ending up with more questions about our minds. Maybe, there are no answers yet. I mean, take myself, I find it hard to remember things from yesterday. Yet, I can remember things my father said 50 years ago. I will tell myself and others will tell me how good I am, yet I still identify with him telling me I was stupid. He even took me out of school to work at his company. He said it was a waste of time teachers trying to teach me. I have proved him wrong so many times, yet I still at times think he was right when I make a mistake. If only he was still alive. I could yell at him. Look Dad, I'm working in an operating room, I guess I'm not so stupid after all. I'm OK. This was in my head and I had to dump it. I could feel it growing. Do any of you know what I mean? Don W