Isn't it wonderful to be in that nice safe place? To feel safe? I am sure it is wonderful for your kids too.
Safe.
I just like the sound of it. I remember the day not too long ago I said out loud to someone "I just want to feel safe."
Safety for us is not just a word about a physical thing. I just wanted to be safe from all and any kind of hurt.
You said:
For now I am taking care of myself and being the mother I need and want to be without worring all the time weather or not he is drinking and the fear of what he will start.
And those words went right to my heart. Enjoy this time with your children in the comfort of safety.
And, as someone once told me at a face-to-face meeting...
Give Yourself the Gift of Time.
Do not let anyone rush you into any decision.